intro...intro...intro

 What does one write for an introduction?

Hobbies? I am an avid reader, mostly dark romance. I crochet (I’m currently working on something cool and I’ll write the pattern down for anyone who wants it!). I like to write (hence the blog).

Hmmm, what else? I’m married, have a daughter. I’ve got one dog and four cats. I’m pretty much a hermit, and pretty introverted. Some might say I’m an introverted-extrovert. Those who have full VIP access to me know I shine quite brightly. 

My music tastes vary depending on whether Loki or Lord Hades enjoys it, it goes from BTS to Corpse Husband, to Britney Spears and Hollywood Undead to Hazbin Hotel and everything in between. 

I’m a multifaceted individual, I always have ideas brewing, stories to write, blogs to create, crochet pieces to make. I want to share all of that with the world, I know my art, my words, my space is for someone. Even if it’s just me.

So there’s a little piece of me, there’s more to come don’t worry.

Until next time,

xx

C.R. Phoenix

A conversation with Hades

 “What do I even write about?” I exclaimed as I threw my hands in the air. 

There was a pause, and then, quietly he spoke, “About you.”

So here I am, here I am to write about myself, my hobbies, interests. This blog is really more a personal diary than anything else. 

You see, I have a fear. A fear of being seen, (no the irony isn’t lost on me that Lord Hades, “The Unseen” is helping me through this fear). All my life I’ve been told;

• I’m too sensitive

• I’m too dramatic

• That I’m way intense

• That I’m too much

Before it always felt like a curse in a way. I allowed others' judgement to influence how I feel about myself. I am very sensitive. I am sensitive to energy, to the unseen. I feel things others don’t. I pick up on things others don’t. I’m a bit….spooky (a regular Mulder). 

Over the years, I would lock those parts of me away. I would hide my most authentic self just to please others, to be forced inside of a box. To dim my light. I’ve held back for years in fear of judgement, (again the irony isn't lost on me. I worship Hades…I can look Judgement in his eyes and not even squirm. But just the thought of posting a blog for others to see? Oof…). But not today. Not now. I’m turning 33 this year, I’ve reached the point in my life where I’m fully prioritizing myself. I am deserving of new opportunities, experiences, and making new memories. I continue to devote my time, energy and love into those I care about. I am one of those people. I am a former people pleaser. I am a person too, so why can't I please myself? 

That is what this new phase of my life is, calling back my energy, calling back my power and harnessing it. Transmuting it into something good. Redefining who I am and tapping into my authentic self. It’ll be messy and chaotic (remember ... .Loki.), it’ll be wild and may not make sense, (however I know this blog will find the right people when they need it the most.), kind of like BTS, they find you when you need them the most. This blog may find someone who shares the same ideals, hobbies or interests, who knows?

I doth declare...

 I am writing a book,

And if I gave you this line…

“ “The child you bear will be your greatest downfall, for you wicked Sea Queen, will return to seafoam once more,” the ancient oracle declared, “Karma will show you no mercy.” ”

Would you keep reading? 

This will be my debut novel and a healing journey. It won’t be for everyone and that’s okay. But this is my path, the path I’m forging for myself. I will no longer be small, I no longer will shove myself in a box by or for anyone. Not even for my own haunting thoughts. 

That’s why this blog is equally as important, I can come here to scatter those ashes of my mind, (and to share snippets of my novel along the way). To also show you pieces of myself and soul. To share the wondrous worlds I build in my head. Ones that I’ve built for years but never thought I should write a book. That I wasn’t good enough, or that others might be judgemental about it. 

So, I do hope when you stop by to read through this blog or my book, I hope you find sanctuary, and a safe space here. I manifest to attract like minds and souls 🙏🫶

Take care friends 💜

xx

C.R. Phoenix